Hello everyone! For those of you who have seen me vanish and heard my woes and held your breath to see when I'd return (ok... maybe you didn't hold your breath, exactly...) I'm happy to say that my life has taken a beautiful turn for the better. I've been so happy for the past week, and I feel like this is it.... I'm moving on.

With that said, art production is still a little slow. I've got a lot on my plate now, what with working upwards of 40 hours a week when I can and trying to spend some quality time with my family as much as possible. Life has been dizzying, but it keeps getting better.

My goal is to work on a painting focused on all of this... maybe a photography set. I'm still brainstorming ideas, and while there's loads of other little things I could work on, this is the project that matters most to me, and so I must complete it...

...once I can figure out what it will be, exactly.

In other news, a new person has walked into my life (not romantically) and brought with him a pack of inspiration. We're both very interested in film, and will soon be working on many a project, as our ideas just keep on flowing! I'm so excited about picking up my interest in film again... and don't worry, there will be youtube postings to share!

So thanks to all of you who are sweet enough to have felt even a moment's concern about me through this... it's been a real roller coaster ride. But I am a firm believer that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and things happen for a reason. I've found my peace with this situation... I've found myself in it too.

Keep your eyes out for the "Letting Go" project...

Hello everyone! Things are plodding along here, and I've FINALLY uploaded my latest painting. I'm doing much better emotionally, thanks to the wonderful support of friends and family who are so dear and true that I just cannot find words to thank them all enough.

Sorry if I have been bad with commenting back for many of you... I've kinda neglected good old dA while I've been getting things in my world sorted out. Thank you all for your patience and kindness. Let me know what you think of the new painting, and I promise I'll be commenting back!

Hugs and loves to you all!

~ Jenn ~

Hello, everyone! Just a note to let you all know that I'm dealing with some major life issues (divorce and all it's stupidity) and I'm not really going to be around for a month or two. I'm sorry I've not answered many messages or anything, but you can rest assured that there's some fresh artwork coming out of all this! So wait for the upload... it'll be depressing... and I don't know what to do about the pictures of me and my husband that are on here... but something must be done? Maybe I'll just leave them... they're all good pictures... leave them as artwork, nothing more... could they ever be that to me? Who knows.
See you all around!

Everybody, Brandon and I are getting divorced. I know, a shocker, even to me. What's sadder is that I feel reconciled with it. Sure, it's depressing that he so easily lost faith in us when times got rough, and sure it's disappointing that though I came to him ready to work through things he'd rather throw them away, and yes, he's broken my heart and the hearts of my family... but he's doing what he sees is right. I may not agree with his choice, but I support acting upon one's convictions. And since I know now what he sees as right, I can make up my mind about it. I have not been an angel in this relationship, nor a demon, merely human. I look back and see many things I am at fault for, and I know I have done my best to face those issues, bring them forward and correct them. Brandon simply didn't want to risk his immediate and future happiness on the chance our efforts would fail. That's his choice, I respect it, no matter how I feel about it, and I am at peace with it. He knows that I know what he has done, and he knows that I know the role he's playing. So does she. I don't regret a day of our relationship, my life has been blessed in so many ways because of it. I wish he had not married me, a little I do wish it... because I don't think he was honest with himself. But who knows, the past is in the past and there it will stay. So moving forwards, I am so sorry to all of our friends who will be effected by this. Please don't feel that you will need to choose sides, and don't feel like I will begrudge you if you choose Brandon's. I know he is hurting in some way, and so he will need the comfort and love of friends just as I have and still do. To those of you who have helped me through this, I love you with all my heart and all my soul. Thank you for what you've done. And as for Brandon's claims that those of you who have supported me are no longer his friends... well I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I don't begrudge those who support Brandon, and I am sorry if he doesn't feel the same towards you. It's miserable to think friendships are being damaged by this. So my heart aches, but at the same time, I feel so free. To be quite frank, I don't respect the way Brandon handled this, and I am disappointed in him... but he has told me that my thoughts and feelings about him mean nothing... and as he said in his break-up-note, "Nothing tells a person, relationship or anything like how it handles the worst of times." These have been very hard times, by far the worst our relationship ever went through... and when given the opportunity for repair, he turned his back and lost faith. It's been very telling indeed.

Well, since I've spent the past few days at my parents to watch their dog while they're away, among other things, I've had a chance to photograph all the work of mine they have here. Ok, well, not all of it, just the good stuff.

So enjoy the sculpture and paintings, and leave me comments! Much love to all of you!

~ Jenn ~

PS - to those of you who are concerned, Brandon is gonna pick me up today and we're gonna have to talk... and I feel sick cause I know a lot of this fight was my fault and he has every right to be mad at me... but he has a habit of being too stubborn to accept an apology and stuff. So yeah, fingers crossed, everyone.